Wednesday, June 28, 2006
Therapist Anyone? Truly, fishing for compliments
Current mood: cranky
Category: Dreams and the Supernatural
I wanted to get rid of this blog because it ended up being so weird that I felt so gross these few days. But... its a part of me, and how I felt, and that is true and the truth and a good reminder of what can happen when you get down on oneself.
Love to all. Here's the original.
Here are some categories you can compliment me on(NO INSULTS ALLOWED PLEASE), as I am feeling CRUMMY to say the least regarding these. ( No need to remind me how VERY SUPERFICIAL these things are, I know. As well as I know how screwed over my psyche is by American society and my growing up mormon and what not! Bullcrap, Man!!!) Hey what can I do? Sometimes these things matter and I SOOOOOOO WANT THEM TO NOT, but I have no good examples of GIRLS in this world who DON'T care about this superficial crunkality!
yuck feelings about.....
My music and my voice
My unusually shaped face and my nose
My GARGANTUAN hips
Cellulite
The Ongoing Extreme Poverty Struggle in my personal life
Stretch marks
Age being 30
Vericose Veins (WHICH i have had since i was 16)
Boyfriend that loves me truly (first one ever) when I can't figure out why he does so much.
Age being 30
Tons of younger cuter girls wearing styles I feel like I made up WAY BACK WHEN, when people would laugh at my clothes, and now I feel like a FRUMP IN A LUMP because I am not 21.
I remember when me and Heather seriously got LAUGHED AT in Santa Barbara for wearing scarves over our hair, circa 1998-99. I remember Ruebi and I being the only girls with pretty vintage dresses circa 1999 at the CAPITOL GARAGE sacramento and every other girl being a jock's girlfriend style.
WHERE's my indie cred? Gowl darn it!!!!!!!
Bridget Jones' Diary anyone? ( i never read or saw it even, just guessing) ALL COMPLIMENTS WILL BE TAKEN WITH MUCH THANKS, AND ALL WORDS OF TRUE ADVICE AS WELL.
LOVE WORKS.
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hanna.
i think you're adorable. you remind me of a doll. i know we've never really "myspaced" eachother before, but...i just thought you should know.
everyone gets these feelings from time to time. i know i do.
those silly insecurities & lies that we believe about ourselves.
it's at these times that all we need is a hug&&kiss&& a little loving.
consider yourself lovely&amazing.
listen to your favorite song, sing with your head up & your eyes closed [[copeland]], laugh, dance && enjoy yourself. :D:D
Posted by hanna. on Jun 28, 2006 5:03 AM
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Be Brave Bold Robot
Adie! Beautiful Beautiful Adie.
I played music with you at the Fox and Goose once. you gave me a CD.
I find you attractive. you are pretty and have a lovely smile and it was wonderful to share the Fox and Goose hardwood floor with your cute girl-ness.
so, you still got the looks.
your voice was very nice. very genuine and pretty. a couple of your songs had me hanging on and listening intently. now, that's good stuff, cuz I'm flighty and buzzing at shows.
your CD is awesome, but I will complain that that big old sticker that you got slapped onto the CD, those things suck, as some CD players, namely car stereo players, that take the CD in with wheels and levers and such, they don't work well with any sorts of stickers stuck on CDs. so, it got stuck in my Cd player. but, I got it out. I will rip the CD to some sort of computer, and make a nice new CD without the sticker so that I can play it in my car when I go on roadtrips.
so. I like your voice. I like your arrangements. keep up the interesting arrangements.
scream your voice when you can.
you are very pretty.
were I not attached, I would have hit on you.
It was nice to meet you. keep your head up and don't stick stickers on burned CDs.
love
Dean
Posted by Be Brave Bold Robot on Jun 28, 2006 8:59 AM
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zanne
Addi darling. When i first meet you i was so intimidated by you that i couldn't talk to you. You were so vibrant, beauitiful, powerful, assertive, creative, animated. Dreaming and acting upon those dreams like a thunderstorm. Only in the wake of your ambitions are a stream of people who have been touched by your passion. I relized that i am not the only one who is inspired by you. And i quickly got over my shyness of you because your kindness kisses like sunshine. However, all the things that blared out from you so powerfully that intimidated me then are still there. burning even brighter. Addi you are beauitiful. You are tremendously tallented and i am blessed to be your friend. Love Suzanne
Posted by zanne on Jun 28, 2006 8:59 AM
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zecki
my idealistic mind tells me that people like you would never feel insecure because of how immenseley beautiful, talented, and spirited you are. But I guess it must happen to everyone. The first couple times I saw you your presence really hit me hard and I'm sure you probably hardly noticed me but you stuck in my mind. I love your music, and your face and your nose, your poverty is inspiring and I think you might be one of the coolest girls in the whole world!
Art is truly a great guy too, Im happy you two found eachother and that true love really does exist, we should all hang out very soon.
Posted by zecki on Jun 28, 2006 1:33 PM
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Ashrahala
Addy.
Its kind of funny that you should say you dont get credit for your style.
because everytime i see something that reminds me of what you and ruebi would wear, I think that I will be laughed at and ridiculed. i dont want to rip anyones style, you know?
and i loved you since i met you. and mostly i think its because you can find beauty in anything, and you make everything so rad. and you say "rad". and that word reminds me of you, and thats a good word to remind anyone of anyone because its so positive.
im envious of your voice and your talents- youre so artistic and beautiful and i can only hope to be as happy as you have been as long as i have known you. i know you will get your springtime laughter back soon, and make me feel bad about being sad over my acne and thunder thighs. because you have much greater things to think about. more songs to write. more pictures to take, more trails to hike.
no frets, adie dear. you are simply amazing.
Posted by Ashrahala on Jun 28, 2006 1:47 PM
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Cool Breeze
I'm coming to Pville this weekend. I've got to get Sinjin in line. Take him to get a hamburger (not at McDonalds). You can come too.
Fall In,
CB/DC
Posted by Cool Breeze on Jun 28, 2006 5:36 PM
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darling nicotine
BABY!!!
have you read any of these comments??? Get the FUCK out. I love you so so much and you better know this.
foreves
your lovvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvve!
Posted by darling nicotine on Jun 28, 2006 5:49 PM
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Chris
*reads que cards*
Stretch marks are in the eyes of the beholder.
Or somthing
Posted by Chris on Jun 29, 2006 5:23 PM
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ruebi
okay love here's the deal,
PLEASE DO NOT BECOME A HOLOCAUST ELF, now i know it is trendy right now, but i don't necessarily think it is healthy.
Adrienne, you must know that your beauty is beyond compare, and your sweetness makes you even more beautiful( as if that were even possible)
please do not be a bad example to our young girls, we have hips for a reason, its called CREATION,
ALL things stem from having hips, you were born because you mother was a healthy happy glowing woman, not an emaciated, dissatisfied "fat" skeleton.
when i get down i like to listen to my bessie smith records, here is some wisdom from the lady herself,and i love it!!
In a bakery shop today
I heard Miss Mandy Jenkins say
She had the best cake, you see
And they were fresh as fresh could be
And as the people would pass by
You would hear Miss Mandy cry
Nobody in town can bake a sweet
jelly roll
like mine, like mine
No other one in town can bake a sweet jelly roll so fine, so fine
It's worth lots of dough, the boys tell me so
It's fresh every day, you'll hear 'em all say
Don't be no dunce, just try it once
You'll be right in line
Somebody told me I made the best jelly roll in town, I say in town
You must admit that I'm a jelly roll bakin' hound, bakin' hound
Good jelly roll, jelly roll is so hard to find
We always get the other kind
Nobody in town can bake a sweet jelly roll like mine
Somebody told me I made the best jelly roll in town, I say in town
You must admit that I'm a jelly roll bakin' hound, bakin' hound
Good jelly roll, jelly roll from a bakery shop
Will surely make a pool frog hop
Nobody in town can bake a sweet jelly roll like mine, like mine
i hope you understand what i am sayin!! i love you
Posted by ruebi on Jun 30, 2006 2:31 AM
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