Tuesday, July 18, 2006
Future Heroines and Heroes I love you
Current mood: weird
Category: Life
I just got back from a certain movie
And I am thinking a lot about my place in this world. And how I beat myself up so much over being so concerned about the world. I get embarrassed sometimes that I write lyrics about issues of the world that matter so deeply to me: True feminism as I think of it (vastly different than what the norm of "feminism" is), anti-war, pro-acceptance, pro changes in the world that get rid of hate. I am surrounded by rock-star-ish people, with amazing doses of talent in their blood, and I can get insecure and want to be more like them and less like me. I tend to not be able to help but write music about things that matter to me in the world, often times different than the broken-heart and sex issues of regular rocking out people. This causes me to feel inferior. After seeing this movie I feel better, like maybe all those supercool indie rocking out people are just old-school style and have old habits in music, and that some new kind of rock and roll or indie emo screamo demo will have more of a political edge and have something to say that can save the world.
I need to switch my thoughts over on this subject. In the meantime, my own music is EXTREMELY hard for me to feel confident about because its about stuff that matters so deeply to me. WOW that is pretty dumb...>The kids in Olympia seem to do pretty good at being really confident in making music about stuff they feel STRONGLY and EMOTIONALLY about that is going on in the world. They combine some kind of revolutionary aspect with a lot of their music and art. Here it seems like the only people that do that really, are older style new-age types, with entirely too blatant of lyrics that talk about how the earth needs our help or something like that. I get really uncomfortable around these types of shows. In fact it is one of my least favorite music to hear, because if anything it makes rad younger kids MAKE SURE TO NEVER play music with a political edge, because it looks so terrible coming from certain people.
Anyways, I played a show the other night, and it went completely well. Except that by the end of the show I was beating myself up, bad, in my mind. Not because my show went badly, but because super-rad-cool girls/ people played after me and they sang about plain old good ol fashioned romantic love and guns and whiskey and circuses and whats more, I EFFING LOVED THEIR MUSIC. I mean Tom Waits is one of my idols. I would have chosen exactly the same lyrics for songs, or gawl damn close, about true love and fixations and being buried and being married and whiskey and etc. EXCEPT THAT I DONT write those songs, they do. And I beat myself up about it! Instead I feel like my songs have to say something to the world and help inspire people motivationally to look at things with new eyes or to change their lives, or to change the world. Why this is so deeply embarrassing to me, I am trying to figure out. It is a two-headed monster that is for sure.
SO enough is enough. I guess its hard to find heroes and heroines in this day and age, and if I dont have really good examples for what it is exactly I am trying to be, then I have to just be my own heroine. But that is really fucking hard. I want to see old old couples still deeply in love and not chained by obligation. I want to hear the Yeah Yeah Yeahs sing about revolution and social change. I want to see kids with pink and purple hair in the Capitol, TALKING TO SENATORS. I want to see this stuff and I think its really lame that I am embarrassed, ever, to be an artist or musician that sings on stage or talks on stage about this stuff. I am going to try to believe in myself WAY MORE THAN THAT FROM NOW ON.
Currently listening :
The Best of 1980-1990
By U2
Release date: By 10 November, 1998
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darling nicotine
"Well, let's start a revolution in our heads."
- a ra
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heather
it will happen.
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Friday, July 04, 2008
June 06 RANNNNT Myspace 31st Blog
Wednesday, June 28, 2006
Therapist Anyone? Truly, fishing for compliments
Current mood: cranky
Category: Dreams and the Supernatural
I wanted to get rid of this blog because it ended up being so weird that I felt so gross these few days. But... its a part of me, and how I felt, and that is true and the truth and a good reminder of what can happen when you get down on oneself.
Love to all. Here's the original.
Here are some categories you can compliment me on(NO INSULTS ALLOWED PLEASE), as I am feeling CRUMMY to say the least regarding these. ( No need to remind me how VERY SUPERFICIAL these things are, I know. As well as I know how screwed over my psyche is by American society and my growing up mormon and what not! Bullcrap, Man!!!) Hey what can I do? Sometimes these things matter and I SOOOOOOO WANT THEM TO NOT, but I have no good examples of GIRLS in this world who DON'T care about this superficial crunkality!
yuck feelings about.....
My music and my voice
My unusually shaped face and my nose
My GARGANTUAN hips
Cellulite
The Ongoing Extreme Poverty Struggle in my personal life
Stretch marks
Age being 30
Vericose Veins (WHICH i have had since i was 16)
Boyfriend that loves me truly (first one ever) when I can't figure out why he does so much.
Age being 30
Tons of younger cuter girls wearing styles I feel like I made up WAY BACK WHEN, when people would laugh at my clothes, and now I feel like a FRUMP IN A LUMP because I am not 21.
I remember when me and Heather seriously got LAUGHED AT in Santa Barbara for wearing scarves over our hair, circa 1998-99. I remember Ruebi and I being the only girls with pretty vintage dresses circa 1999 at the CAPITOL GARAGE sacramento and every other girl being a jock's girlfriend style.
WHERE's my indie cred? Gowl darn it!!!!!!!
Bridget Jones' Diary anyone? ( i never read or saw it even, just guessing) ALL COMPLIMENTS WILL BE TAKEN WITH MUCH THANKS, AND ALL WORDS OF TRUE ADVICE AS WELL.
LOVE WORKS.
ades
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hanna.
i think you're adorable. you remind me of a doll. i know we've never really "myspaced" eachother before, but...i just thought you should know.
everyone gets these feelings from time to time. i know i do.
those silly insecurities & lies that we believe about ourselves.
it's at these times that all we need is a hug&&kiss&& a little loving.
consider yourself lovely&amazing.
listen to your favorite song, sing with your head up & your eyes closed [[copeland]], laugh, dance && enjoy yourself. :D:D
Posted by hanna. on Jun 28, 2006 5:03 AM
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Be Brave Bold Robot
Adie! Beautiful Beautiful Adie.
I played music with you at the Fox and Goose once. you gave me a CD.
I find you attractive. you are pretty and have a lovely smile and it was wonderful to share the Fox and Goose hardwood floor with your cute girl-ness.
so, you still got the looks.
your voice was very nice. very genuine and pretty. a couple of your songs had me hanging on and listening intently. now, that's good stuff, cuz I'm flighty and buzzing at shows.
your CD is awesome, but I will complain that that big old sticker that you got slapped onto the CD, those things suck, as some CD players, namely car stereo players, that take the CD in with wheels and levers and such, they don't work well with any sorts of stickers stuck on CDs. so, it got stuck in my Cd player. but, I got it out. I will rip the CD to some sort of computer, and make a nice new CD without the sticker so that I can play it in my car when I go on roadtrips.
so. I like your voice. I like your arrangements. keep up the interesting arrangements.
scream your voice when you can.
you are very pretty.
were I not attached, I would have hit on you.
It was nice to meet you. keep your head up and don't stick stickers on burned CDs.
love
Dean
Posted by Be Brave Bold Robot on Jun 28, 2006 8:59 AM
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zanne
Addi darling. When i first meet you i was so intimidated by you that i couldn't talk to you. You were so vibrant, beauitiful, powerful, assertive, creative, animated. Dreaming and acting upon those dreams like a thunderstorm. Only in the wake of your ambitions are a stream of people who have been touched by your passion. I relized that i am not the only one who is inspired by you. And i quickly got over my shyness of you because your kindness kisses like sunshine. However, all the things that blared out from you so powerfully that intimidated me then are still there. burning even brighter. Addi you are beauitiful. You are tremendously tallented and i am blessed to be your friend. Love Suzanne
Posted by zanne on Jun 28, 2006 8:59 AM
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zecki
my idealistic mind tells me that people like you would never feel insecure because of how immenseley beautiful, talented, and spirited you are. But I guess it must happen to everyone. The first couple times I saw you your presence really hit me hard and I'm sure you probably hardly noticed me but you stuck in my mind. I love your music, and your face and your nose, your poverty is inspiring and I think you might be one of the coolest girls in the whole world!
Art is truly a great guy too, Im happy you two found eachother and that true love really does exist, we should all hang out very soon.
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Ashrahala
Addy.
Its kind of funny that you should say you dont get credit for your style.
because everytime i see something that reminds me of what you and ruebi would wear, I think that I will be laughed at and ridiculed. i dont want to rip anyones style, you know?
and i loved you since i met you. and mostly i think its because you can find beauty in anything, and you make everything so rad. and you say "rad". and that word reminds me of you, and thats a good word to remind anyone of anyone because its so positive.
im envious of your voice and your talents- youre so artistic and beautiful and i can only hope to be as happy as you have been as long as i have known you. i know you will get your springtime laughter back soon, and make me feel bad about being sad over my acne and thunder thighs. because you have much greater things to think about. more songs to write. more pictures to take, more trails to hike.
no frets, adie dear. you are simply amazing.
Posted by Ashrahala on Jun 28, 2006 1:47 PM
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Cool Breeze
I'm coming to Pville this weekend. I've got to get Sinjin in line. Take him to get a hamburger (not at McDonalds). You can come too.
Fall In,
CB/DC
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darling nicotine
BABY!!!
have you read any of these comments??? Get the FUCK out. I love you so so much and you better know this.
foreves
your lovvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvve!
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Chris
*reads que cards*
Stretch marks are in the eyes of the beholder.
Or somthing
Posted by Chris on Jun 29, 2006 5:23 PM
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ruebi
okay love here's the deal,
PLEASE DO NOT BECOME A HOLOCAUST ELF, now i know it is trendy right now, but i don't necessarily think it is healthy.
Adrienne, you must know that your beauty is beyond compare, and your sweetness makes you even more beautiful( as if that were even possible)
please do not be a bad example to our young girls, we have hips for a reason, its called CREATION,
ALL things stem from having hips, you were born because you mother was a healthy happy glowing woman, not an emaciated, dissatisfied "fat" skeleton.
when i get down i like to listen to my bessie smith records, here is some wisdom from the lady herself,and i love it!!
In a bakery shop today
I heard Miss Mandy Jenkins say
She had the best cake, you see
And they were fresh as fresh could be
And as the people would pass by
You would hear Miss Mandy cry
Nobody in town can bake a sweet
jelly roll
like mine, like mine
No other one in town can bake a sweet jelly roll so fine, so fine
It's worth lots of dough, the boys tell me so
It's fresh every day, you'll hear 'em all say
Don't be no dunce, just try it once
You'll be right in line
Somebody told me I made the best jelly roll in town, I say in town
You must admit that I'm a jelly roll bakin' hound, bakin' hound
Good jelly roll, jelly roll is so hard to find
We always get the other kind
Nobody in town can bake a sweet jelly roll like mine
Somebody told me I made the best jelly roll in town, I say in town
You must admit that I'm a jelly roll bakin' hound, bakin' hound
Good jelly roll, jelly roll from a bakery shop
Will surely make a pool frog hop
Nobody in town can bake a sweet jelly roll like mine, like mine
i hope you understand what i am sayin!! i love you
Posted by ruebi on Jun 30, 2006 2:31 AM
Therapist Anyone? Truly, fishing for compliments
Current mood: cranky
Category: Dreams and the Supernatural
I wanted to get rid of this blog because it ended up being so weird that I felt so gross these few days. But... its a part of me, and how I felt, and that is true and the truth and a good reminder of what can happen when you get down on oneself.
Love to all. Here's the original.
Here are some categories you can compliment me on(NO INSULTS ALLOWED PLEASE), as I am feeling CRUMMY to say the least regarding these. ( No need to remind me how VERY SUPERFICIAL these things are, I know. As well as I know how screwed over my psyche is by American society and my growing up mormon and what not! Bullcrap, Man!!!) Hey what can I do? Sometimes these things matter and I SOOOOOOO WANT THEM TO NOT, but I have no good examples of GIRLS in this world who DON'T care about this superficial crunkality!
yuck feelings about.....
My music and my voice
My unusually shaped face and my nose
My GARGANTUAN hips
Cellulite
The Ongoing Extreme Poverty Struggle in my personal life
Stretch marks
Age being 30
Vericose Veins (WHICH i have had since i was 16)
Boyfriend that loves me truly (first one ever) when I can't figure out why he does so much.
Age being 30
Tons of younger cuter girls wearing styles I feel like I made up WAY BACK WHEN, when people would laugh at my clothes, and now I feel like a FRUMP IN A LUMP because I am not 21.
I remember when me and Heather seriously got LAUGHED AT in Santa Barbara for wearing scarves over our hair, circa 1998-99. I remember Ruebi and I being the only girls with pretty vintage dresses circa 1999 at the CAPITOL GARAGE sacramento and every other girl being a jock's girlfriend style.
WHERE's my indie cred? Gowl darn it!!!!!!!
Bridget Jones' Diary anyone? ( i never read or saw it even, just guessing) ALL COMPLIMENTS WILL BE TAKEN WITH MUCH THANKS, AND ALL WORDS OF TRUE ADVICE AS WELL.
LOVE WORKS.
ades
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hanna.
i think you're adorable. you remind me of a doll. i know we've never really "myspaced" eachother before, but...i just thought you should know.
everyone gets these feelings from time to time. i know i do.
those silly insecurities & lies that we believe about ourselves.
it's at these times that all we need is a hug&&kiss&& a little loving.
consider yourself lovely&amazing.
listen to your favorite song, sing with your head up & your eyes closed [[copeland]], laugh, dance && enjoy yourself. :D:D
Posted by hanna. on Jun 28, 2006 5:03 AM
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Be Brave Bold Robot
Adie! Beautiful Beautiful Adie.
I played music with you at the Fox and Goose once. you gave me a CD.
I find you attractive. you are pretty and have a lovely smile and it was wonderful to share the Fox and Goose hardwood floor with your cute girl-ness.
so, you still got the looks.
your voice was very nice. very genuine and pretty. a couple of your songs had me hanging on and listening intently. now, that's good stuff, cuz I'm flighty and buzzing at shows.
your CD is awesome, but I will complain that that big old sticker that you got slapped onto the CD, those things suck, as some CD players, namely car stereo players, that take the CD in with wheels and levers and such, they don't work well with any sorts of stickers stuck on CDs. so, it got stuck in my Cd player. but, I got it out. I will rip the CD to some sort of computer, and make a nice new CD without the sticker so that I can play it in my car when I go on roadtrips.
so. I like your voice. I like your arrangements. keep up the interesting arrangements.
scream your voice when you can.
you are very pretty.
were I not attached, I would have hit on you.
It was nice to meet you. keep your head up and don't stick stickers on burned CDs.
love
Dean
Posted by Be Brave Bold Robot on Jun 28, 2006 8:59 AM
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zanne
Addi darling. When i first meet you i was so intimidated by you that i couldn't talk to you. You were so vibrant, beauitiful, powerful, assertive, creative, animated. Dreaming and acting upon those dreams like a thunderstorm. Only in the wake of your ambitions are a stream of people who have been touched by your passion. I relized that i am not the only one who is inspired by you. And i quickly got over my shyness of you because your kindness kisses like sunshine. However, all the things that blared out from you so powerfully that intimidated me then are still there. burning even brighter. Addi you are beauitiful. You are tremendously tallented and i am blessed to be your friend. Love Suzanne
Posted by zanne on Jun 28, 2006 8:59 AM
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zecki
my idealistic mind tells me that people like you would never feel insecure because of how immenseley beautiful, talented, and spirited you are. But I guess it must happen to everyone. The first couple times I saw you your presence really hit me hard and I'm sure you probably hardly noticed me but you stuck in my mind. I love your music, and your face and your nose, your poverty is inspiring and I think you might be one of the coolest girls in the whole world!
Art is truly a great guy too, Im happy you two found eachother and that true love really does exist, we should all hang out very soon.
Posted by zecki on Jun 28, 2006 1:33 PM
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Ashrahala
Addy.
Its kind of funny that you should say you dont get credit for your style.
because everytime i see something that reminds me of what you and ruebi would wear, I think that I will be laughed at and ridiculed. i dont want to rip anyones style, you know?
and i loved you since i met you. and mostly i think its because you can find beauty in anything, and you make everything so rad. and you say "rad". and that word reminds me of you, and thats a good word to remind anyone of anyone because its so positive.
im envious of your voice and your talents- youre so artistic and beautiful and i can only hope to be as happy as you have been as long as i have known you. i know you will get your springtime laughter back soon, and make me feel bad about being sad over my acne and thunder thighs. because you have much greater things to think about. more songs to write. more pictures to take, more trails to hike.
no frets, adie dear. you are simply amazing.
Posted by Ashrahala on Jun 28, 2006 1:47 PM
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Cool Breeze
I'm coming to Pville this weekend. I've got to get Sinjin in line. Take him to get a hamburger (not at McDonalds). You can come too.
Fall In,
CB/DC
Posted by Cool Breeze on Jun 28, 2006 5:36 PM
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darling nicotine
BABY!!!
have you read any of these comments??? Get the FUCK out. I love you so so much and you better know this.
foreves
your lovvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvve!
Posted by darling nicotine on Jun 28, 2006 5:49 PM
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Chris
*reads que cards*
Stretch marks are in the eyes of the beholder.
Or somthing
Posted by Chris on Jun 29, 2006 5:23 PM
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ruebi
okay love here's the deal,
PLEASE DO NOT BECOME A HOLOCAUST ELF, now i know it is trendy right now, but i don't necessarily think it is healthy.
Adrienne, you must know that your beauty is beyond compare, and your sweetness makes you even more beautiful( as if that were even possible)
please do not be a bad example to our young girls, we have hips for a reason, its called CREATION,
ALL things stem from having hips, you were born because you mother was a healthy happy glowing woman, not an emaciated, dissatisfied "fat" skeleton.
when i get down i like to listen to my bessie smith records, here is some wisdom from the lady herself,and i love it!!
In a bakery shop today
I heard Miss Mandy Jenkins say
She had the best cake, you see
And they were fresh as fresh could be
And as the people would pass by
You would hear Miss Mandy cry
Nobody in town can bake a sweet
jelly roll
like mine, like mine
No other one in town can bake a sweet jelly roll so fine, so fine
It's worth lots of dough, the boys tell me so
It's fresh every day, you'll hear 'em all say
Don't be no dunce, just try it once
You'll be right in line
Somebody told me I made the best jelly roll in town, I say in town
You must admit that I'm a jelly roll bakin' hound, bakin' hound
Good jelly roll, jelly roll is so hard to find
We always get the other kind
Nobody in town can bake a sweet jelly roll like mine
Somebody told me I made the best jelly roll in town, I say in town
You must admit that I'm a jelly roll bakin' hound, bakin' hound
Good jelly roll, jelly roll from a bakery shop
Will surely make a pool frog hop
Nobody in town can bake a sweet jelly roll like mine, like mine
i hope you understand what i am sayin!! i love you
Posted by ruebi on Jun 30, 2006 2:31 AM
June 2006 30th Myspace Post
Tuesday, June 13, 2006
Biodegradable Soap Lessons (what I gratefuletize)
Current mood: thankful
Category: Life
What I am grateful for, what are you, darling, grateful for?
When I was small and wild I learned about climbing rocks and rivers and catching crawdads and cattails and I learned, while camping with Dad, why one uses biodegradable soap in a river.
I also lived down the dirt road from a very old woman's rickety white house that had a flock of peacocks and all night we would hear them cry, aaarrrgh-awww aarrrrh-awww!
I am grateful that I grew up in the golden country. That I climbed into old gold mines as a teenager, and swam in weird lake things. That I caught tadpoles, that I swam with frogs, that I heard the coyotes and picked pomegranates from our tree, that I rode a bike and had long legs that made me look like a dorky grasshopper on it.
I am grateful that my heart is set on love and that through my parent's oddly sensitive compassionate Mormon nature, I was taught to never hate. (Though unfortunately, I was immersed in loads of undercover racism)Yet I was taught to be endeared. To animals, to little old men, to stinky people, to crazy people on the street, to babies, to meth addicts. That my sister, Heather, has taught me that more than anyone I ever have known. That when someone seemed sad or alone, just one moment talking to them can change their entire life. I love heather so deeply for that thing in her heart. Through the haze of judgement that has its claws in our human hearts, we can see past the faults or differences of ANYONE THAT WE CHOOSE TO. AND WE CAN CHANGE THEIR LIFE.
TO me, that is the greatest most hippest most exciting quality that any of us can have. The best talent in the world to me, is the ability to love free-ly.
HEATHER BEATTY IS my sweetheart sister, and I hope that you think about this blog and HEATHER sometimes. How, in high school, her and her friend KIM, befriended this pretty nerdy girl that worked in the cafeteria. How I saw that they went out of their way to be extra nice to her.
How it was the best lesson I ever soaked in.
I AM GRATEFUL FOR HEATHER ELAINE BEATTY.
I AM GRATEFUL FOR THE FEELING THAT LOVE GIVES TO NOT ONLY THE LOVER, BUT THE LOVEE.
gypsytownmusic.com
Currently listening :
Made to Love Magic
By Nick Drake
Release date: By 22 June, 2004
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Darling YOU are the dearest ...................................
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.......................................fuck kudos... love real love
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susan
Heather deserves all our love, she is a precious darling girl as you are too! I love you both so much my angel daughters!!!
Posted by susan on Jul 1, 2006 8:05 AM
Biodegradable Soap Lessons (what I gratefuletize)
Current mood: thankful
Category: Life
What I am grateful for, what are you, darling, grateful for?
When I was small and wild I learned about climbing rocks and rivers and catching crawdads and cattails and I learned, while camping with Dad, why one uses biodegradable soap in a river.
I also lived down the dirt road from a very old woman's rickety white house that had a flock of peacocks and all night we would hear them cry, aaarrrgh-awww aarrrrh-awww!
I am grateful that I grew up in the golden country. That I climbed into old gold mines as a teenager, and swam in weird lake things. That I caught tadpoles, that I swam with frogs, that I heard the coyotes and picked pomegranates from our tree, that I rode a bike and had long legs that made me look like a dorky grasshopper on it.
I am grateful that my heart is set on love and that through my parent's oddly sensitive compassionate Mormon nature, I was taught to never hate. (Though unfortunately, I was immersed in loads of undercover racism)Yet I was taught to be endeared. To animals, to little old men, to stinky people, to crazy people on the street, to babies, to meth addicts. That my sister, Heather, has taught me that more than anyone I ever have known. That when someone seemed sad or alone, just one moment talking to them can change their entire life. I love heather so deeply for that thing in her heart. Through the haze of judgement that has its claws in our human hearts, we can see past the faults or differences of ANYONE THAT WE CHOOSE TO. AND WE CAN CHANGE THEIR LIFE.
TO me, that is the greatest most hippest most exciting quality that any of us can have. The best talent in the world to me, is the ability to love free-ly.
HEATHER BEATTY IS my sweetheart sister, and I hope that you think about this blog and HEATHER sometimes. How, in high school, her and her friend KIM, befriended this pretty nerdy girl that worked in the cafeteria. How I saw that they went out of their way to be extra nice to her.
How it was the best lesson I ever soaked in.
I AM GRATEFUL FOR HEATHER ELAINE BEATTY.
I AM GRATEFUL FOR THE FEELING THAT LOVE GIVES TO NOT ONLY THE LOVER, BUT THE LOVEE.
gypsytownmusic.com
Currently listening :
Made to Love Magic
By Nick Drake
Release date: By 22 June, 2004
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Darling YOU are the dearest ...................................
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.......................................fuck kudos... love real love
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susan
Heather deserves all our love, she is a precious darling girl as you are too! I love you both so much my angel daughters!!!
Posted by susan on Jul 1, 2006 8:05 AM
June rant 2006 Myspace 29th post
Thursday, June 01, 2006
Though I was once in love ....
Current mood: cranky
Category: Pets and Animals
With this town.
I realize that Nevada City only cares about who is its next biggest famous person. Crapola, crapola, crapola.
OK that does not count for the rad old bums, and shop-owners, and rockers, and punk rockers and a handful of people who I see go out of their way to be kind to strangers, new friends, families, old ladies in wheelchairs, etcetera. But there was this nice night at the National...and I wandered around for a while. And at times I felt really uncomfortable, you know, like I am not welcome or something. Or just not noticed. And that hurts my feelings. And feelings really count for me, you know? Anyways, I don't want to be a meanie, because I am not one, but I just think we should all be inclusive to people on the outside. In all kinds of situations. This may be the dorkiest thing I ever wrote, and I don't really care.
I guess I just felt alone. I do love a handful of them whom I know care bout love and niceness to others.
All my good heart,
hoping for true love in the world and for other concerned citizens about the state of life that we live in
Revolution bring it on.
Adrinne
Currently listening :
Too Legit to Quit
By MC Hammer
Release date: By 20 October, 1998
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heather
this is not dorky, it is true and important and i love you and i am so glad that you and some people care enough to be true and kind and recognize that this is life's truest sweetest fullness.
Posted by heather on Jun 2, 2006 1:49 PM
Though I was once in love ....
Current mood: cranky
Category: Pets and Animals
With this town.
I realize that Nevada City only cares about who is its next biggest famous person. Crapola, crapola, crapola.
OK that does not count for the rad old bums, and shop-owners, and rockers, and punk rockers and a handful of people who I see go out of their way to be kind to strangers, new friends, families, old ladies in wheelchairs, etcetera. But there was this nice night at the National...and I wandered around for a while. And at times I felt really uncomfortable, you know, like I am not welcome or something. Or just not noticed. And that hurts my feelings. And feelings really count for me, you know? Anyways, I don't want to be a meanie, because I am not one, but I just think we should all be inclusive to people on the outside. In all kinds of situations. This may be the dorkiest thing I ever wrote, and I don't really care.
I guess I just felt alone. I do love a handful of them whom I know care bout love and niceness to others.
All my good heart,
hoping for true love in the world and for other concerned citizens about the state of life that we live in
Revolution bring it on.
Adrinne
Currently listening :
Too Legit to Quit
By MC Hammer
Release date: By 20 October, 1998
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heather
this is not dorky, it is true and important and i love you and i am so glad that you and some people care enough to be true and kind and recognize that this is life's truest sweetest fullness.
Posted by heather on Jun 2, 2006 1:49 PM
May 2006 23rd post Myspace
Friday, May 26, 2006
How you spend your time not your money
Current mood: chipper
Category: Religion and Philosophy
I had the most beautiful, haunting vision/ night-dream the other night. I walked onto a ceremony at dawn with ancient ancient thousand year old peoples, and I witnessed their holy respect for each other and I witnessed their true wisdom. In a moment of the dream, I realized how cheap my clothes were, my cell phone (especially lame), my stuff. It all seemed pretty cheap and untimeless. These people were timeless, neither dead or alive, they were so timeless. There were ancestor spirits, and they let me be there. The feeling I had was of total awe, pure miracleism, pure fulfillment just being close to them. Everything holy was there. They believed in God, magic, each other, total honesty, humility. They wanted me to know that I too had the heart to have their wisdom. Through that dream I have learned these things:
I want to be productive and creative, not consumptive.
I want to have a non-traditional life.
I want to do whatever it takes to bring joy to my own life and the lives of others.
I want a family or friends that all share their creation, and are honest and humble and dork-o-rama with each other.
I want to shove money down the toilet and flush it.
I want to live like the people of this land once did, close to it, alive with it, supporting each other, gathering together, RESPECTING their hearts and the heart of the animals and the land.
I want to change the world for the better.
I will always be ready for change if it is needed to improve the quality of life.
I will always be ready to give if someone truly needs my help, any time of the day or night.
I will always know that a soul is made up of moments and lessons and witness, not things and money.
You can't buy the song in your heart when you see a sunset or the sunrise, and you are near your favorite people, and you are in love with life.
It is that song that TRULY is life fulfilled. We really do need each other, and nothing else in the human world can replace that.
Currently listening :
Meet On The Ledge: The Classic Years (1967-1975)
By Fairport Convention
Release date: By 27 July, 1999
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heather
YYYEEEAAAHH! i am so with you. i love you. this is the beautiful truth. this is my prayer my wish and my mantra. this is what i want to bring with me everywhere and we only get one chance here. this is what can be spread across the sweet earth with grace and love.
Posted by heather on May 26, 2006 3:10 PM
How you spend your time not your money
Current mood: chipper
Category: Religion and Philosophy
I had the most beautiful, haunting vision/ night-dream the other night. I walked onto a ceremony at dawn with ancient ancient thousand year old peoples, and I witnessed their holy respect for each other and I witnessed their true wisdom. In a moment of the dream, I realized how cheap my clothes were, my cell phone (especially lame), my stuff. It all seemed pretty cheap and untimeless. These people were timeless, neither dead or alive, they were so timeless. There were ancestor spirits, and they let me be there. The feeling I had was of total awe, pure miracleism, pure fulfillment just being close to them. Everything holy was there. They believed in God, magic, each other, total honesty, humility. They wanted me to know that I too had the heart to have their wisdom. Through that dream I have learned these things:
I want to be productive and creative, not consumptive.
I want to have a non-traditional life.
I want to do whatever it takes to bring joy to my own life and the lives of others.
I want a family or friends that all share their creation, and are honest and humble and dork-o-rama with each other.
I want to shove money down the toilet and flush it.
I want to live like the people of this land once did, close to it, alive with it, supporting each other, gathering together, RESPECTING their hearts and the heart of the animals and the land.
I want to change the world for the better.
I will always be ready for change if it is needed to improve the quality of life.
I will always be ready to give if someone truly needs my help, any time of the day or night.
I will always know that a soul is made up of moments and lessons and witness, not things and money.
You can't buy the song in your heart when you see a sunset or the sunrise, and you are near your favorite people, and you are in love with life.
It is that song that TRULY is life fulfilled. We really do need each other, and nothing else in the human world can replace that.
Currently listening :
Meet On The Ledge: The Classic Years (1967-1975)
By Fairport Convention
Release date: By 27 July, 1999
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heather
YYYEEEAAAHH! i am so with you. i love you. this is the beautiful truth. this is my prayer my wish and my mantra. this is what i want to bring with me everywhere and we only get one chance here. this is what can be spread across the sweet earth with grace and love.
Posted by heather on May 26, 2006 3:10 PM
22nd post April 2006
Saturday, April 15, 2006
Love wins. Always.
Current mood: busy
Category: Games
Seeing God everywhere, in Greyhound busses, on the train tracks, traipsing into cafes, into teenage pink hair and headphones, in the Rues of New Orleans, in the eyes of us whom would rather soul in our music, in our hearts, than the soul-less and monetary. I am smiling as the fashion actually is becoming that materialism equals tacky. That materialism lacks true class. Knowing what having real class is.
www.Gypsytown.com I watched this movie two nights ago with Angelina Jolie and Clive Owen and its called Beyond Borders. It's about the United Nations, and relief work at refugee camps in Africa, Cambodia, and other places. It is the reason Angelina became involved in helping out immensely in relief for parts of Africa. There is a horrible drought there now and death is rampant these last couple months in parts of Ethiopia, Somalia, and Kenya. There is no water, and you can help by spreading the word to donate to the UN World Food Programme, via their website. Watch this movie! It will make a part of you come alive.
I love The Chronicles of Narnia and stories like it, because I believe in true eternity. I love hobo kids who are kind as all get-up and tough like it too. I love dreaming my life into reality. Knowing that Love wins.
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Love wins. Always.
Current mood: busy
Category: Games
Seeing God everywhere, in Greyhound busses, on the train tracks, traipsing into cafes, into teenage pink hair and headphones, in the Rues of New Orleans, in the eyes of us whom would rather soul in our music, in our hearts, than the soul-less and monetary. I am smiling as the fashion actually is becoming that materialism equals tacky. That materialism lacks true class. Knowing what having real class is.
www.Gypsytown.com I watched this movie two nights ago with Angelina Jolie and Clive Owen and its called Beyond Borders. It's about the United Nations, and relief work at refugee camps in Africa, Cambodia, and other places. It is the reason Angelina became involved in helping out immensely in relief for parts of Africa. There is a horrible drought there now and death is rampant these last couple months in parts of Ethiopia, Somalia, and Kenya. There is no water, and you can help by spreading the word to donate to the UN World Food Programme, via their website. Watch this movie! It will make a part of you come alive.
I love The Chronicles of Narnia and stories like it, because I believe in true eternity. I love hobo kids who are kind as all get-up and tough like it too. I love dreaming my life into reality. Knowing that Love wins.
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21st post March 2006
Friday, March 31, 2006
Paris le Paris
Category: Music
Je t'aime mon chri. Le seigneur est toujours avec nous nos coeurs. Partout o nous allons nous sommes protgs par l'amour.
I want to learn French immediately. Everyday behind lace curtains I am pretending I am in the streets of Paris, inside windows of cafes and watch the cigarettes in peoples hands reel back and forth with their philosophies. I read about the revolutions over time in France and in Haiti and so much that people anger of. I hear about the dead and the death that keeps fear. I try my hardest to have none, to have the highest hope and light inside despite some of the sadnesses that go on in the world.
And that is what has always endured inside me only. My strong heart. Faith that all is Beautiful forever and will be taken care of. That love yes indeed conquers all and that even our sadnesses are a part of that beautiful giant that is life.
my heart breaks and my heart sings
adrienne
Currently listening :
Funeral
By Arcade Fire
Release date: By 14 September, 2004
Paris le Paris
Category: Music
Je t'aime mon chri. Le seigneur est toujours avec nous nos coeurs. Partout o nous allons nous sommes protgs par l'amour.
I want to learn French immediately. Everyday behind lace curtains I am pretending I am in the streets of Paris, inside windows of cafes and watch the cigarettes in peoples hands reel back and forth with their philosophies. I read about the revolutions over time in France and in Haiti and so much that people anger of. I hear about the dead and the death that keeps fear. I try my hardest to have none, to have the highest hope and light inside despite some of the sadnesses that go on in the world.
And that is what has always endured inside me only. My strong heart. Faith that all is Beautiful forever and will be taken care of. That love yes indeed conquers all and that even our sadnesses are a part of that beautiful giant that is life.
my heart breaks and my heart sings
adrienne
Currently listening :
Funeral
By Arcade Fire
Release date: By 14 September, 2004
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